We have a lot of ways in our life and choice. Sometimes we think: " Oh, no...It is not for me", - without even try. We create in our head that to go this way is disgusting. But we never know the result and the side effect. We fighting with tiger inside of us forbiding let him go and get a real freedom. Yes, the way may looks not good but it will bring you to something warm and nice, which you exactly need and impossibe live without it.